Also been thinking about how I seem to need so much external approval/validation instead of being able to find that inside myself. And how I relied on Leticia for that a LOT. I suppose when we don't get that from our parents/caregivers when we are young, we don't learn how to do it for ourselves or something? I dunno. Working on finding it inside myself now, I'm sure it must be there, it was maybe just easier to keep getting it from Leticia?? Just rambling here.