You have not done any harm. I don't know how to say this other than I am done. I am done fighting with this disease. I know it will eventually kill me and I am done delaying the inevitable. 1 day soon I hope to be able to work up the courage to do something. I have gone to far down this hole to be able to get out. There's always a way out that is true for most people. And most people you can fit them nice and neat into a box and treat them the same way you do everyone else in the box. Well I'm not most people. Every so often you will find someone who is incurable. No matter how much you want to believe that they can be cured some people just can't be. I am 1 of those people.