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ofthevalley · Apr 02, 2019, 08:13 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

It was nice but I'm still exhausted.
it's just the long term effects from all the time of

Possible trigger:

starving myself

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It will probably take awhile for my body to get back to normal and have energy again

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Blue_Bird I don’t necessarily have an ED so maybe I’m talking out of my ***. But here goes.
I will either eat 250 calories a day for 4 days and then eat 2000 calories in one meal or I’ll meticulously measure and count to reach my perfect 1500 calories/day for a couple days and then stop eating because the tracking making me crazy. I don’t intentionally restrict or skip meals...I just don’t always think of it or feel like I can physically handle it.
I have always been this way. Even when I was very heavy.
I have suddenly realized oops it’s been 3 days and all I’ve had is coffee and this twizzler. I rarely get really hungry and if I do I can ignore it and it passes in a few minutes. I quite honestly go days without thinking about food.
Somehow I’m still relatively “healthy”. Despite sometimes eating 3 meals a week I’ve never had to be hospitalized or get fluids.
So you being so ill is incredibly frightening to me. Have you had a full work up?

I don’t really have any advice. I talk out my *** to my daughter about balanced meals and seeing food for what it is...fuel. But in all honesty me and food have a pretty complex relationship. It’s love (of all things junk food) or hate (healthy crap). But I also use it for comfort, entertainment, reward system, to pass the time, etc. all the bad associations. I try really hard not to pass that all on to her but I’m probably failing.
Well...I kind of rambled. Sorry about that. Tired and full of thoughts.
I think you’re doing great. Maybe just a little extra fuel for the fire.