Rap, I know that that is true and it sounds like you have done wonderfully.

I see it kind of like that new movie (pardon my spelling) Ratatouie. "Everyone Can Cook".... and in the end, Ego finds it is not that all people can cook, because that kid sure can't, but that people from all backgrounds can cook and it doesn't take a special breed.

Yes everyone can heal and overcome their barriers. I just do not know if I personally can overcome them in a way so that my own children would be safe with me. I have actually spent my life doing childcare and camps and all sorts of things working with kids in a safe manner and protecting them. But the dichotomy that exsisted in my household, with hell on the inside, and a very drastic view of the Leave it to Beaver on the outside.... i would rather (at least for now) forgo monsterhood and continue to work caring for people in the public life.