I have decided to take the WHV program for a better employment. I've been thinking about it for 2 years and this is the biggest step I'm going to take.

While I'm eligible to take it, the process is long and there's a chance of failure. But what sadden me the most... is the realization that I will leave everything behind. My lovely pet turtles, friends, family, everything.

It makes me cry after a long time. In fact I'm crying while I'm typing this. And I'll continue crying tonight and probably tomorrow.