I get it. I often say to myself "What are you, a teenage girl seeking attention? No you're a grown *** man. Now act like 1." I am 38 will be 39 in a couple of months. Growing up it was ingrained in me that teenage girls did this kind of stuff to get attention. Now that I'm older I know better. Not a day goes by where I don't want to cut. Some days the urge is stronger than others.