There comes a point in time when you have to take responsibility for your own actions. I was never abused or mistreated. There is no reason I am the way I am. Bottom line is I am this way because I'm weak. I'm a grown who has a hard time controlling his emotions. Often times my emotions would come out in anger. The primary trigger for that was video games so as much as I didn't want to I removed a lot of that from my life. Now I'm nothing but a cry baby. I cry over nothing. Things that I should just be sad about (death of a mother in law that I wasn't fond of, death of an uncle I didn't know well) I end up crying about. I act like a little kid just seeking attention. I am always making excuses as to why I am this way and why treatment doesn't work. As I was told "If I really was sorry I would change" so I guess I just want to stay miserable.