There is nothing wrong with seeking help. Sometimes we just need an extra hand to help us out. Sounds to me like your hands are full and you need someone to open the door for you. Instead of asking for someone to open the door you are being stubborn (your words not mine) and fumbling around with everything. It's too much and you realize that. Eventually if you don't ask for help you're going to drop everything. Once that happens things will become exceedingly more difficult.