try this site for a better explanation?
www.aacap.org/about/glossary/Psychos.htm
Please don't take chances... you need to secure ways of keeping yourself safe today... waiting to see a T isn't going to change everything overnight when you do see him... and if you are out of control, he might become very scared for your well being... Can you write yourself reminder notes to stay safe? Can you keep track of when you do take meds, can you find some way to remind yourself not to over react to others when you are driving??? Please try CCL.. be safer!