Dear T,

I didn't tell you about T2, but he was the reason we had a good session yesterday.

T2 said he didn't like the term acting out, but all my ambivalence about therapy was part of the work. If I left now i would likely repeat the pattern with another T.

That you were human.Despite me saying I didn't trust you- I still said that I knew you'd turn up when we had a session- and that was a form of trust.

I never got why regular sessions slots were a good thing- he said it was to provide me regularity and structure. That even though I was mean to you I still always had a choice if I was becoming aware of those feelings.

When I asked if a client could know their therapist- he said that none of his friends knew what it was like to be in therapy with him. That I knew him through my experience of him (I thought it was funny when I quoted that back to you and you said you would use it!).