I’ve been scarce lately, focused on trying to line up all my ducks: Papers are together. Appointments scheduled. Attorney consultations have been done. Meetings with the divorce mediator start tomorrow.

I can’t stop crying. Why? Right now, crying is ridiculous. I need to keep my head about me. I keep having bad dreams: I’m lost, people keep changing into other people, my car won’t turn the way I need to go. The other night I dreamt I had no face.

This makes no sense. I have been ready for this for a long time, and now I’m falling apart???