I'm struggling. My pdoc is taking me off the diazepam faster than I would like. I'm anxious and not sleeping well. She wouldn't compromise. I will be off them in 6 weeks. I see her again in Sep.


I'm doing trauma work and we went through ages 4-10. Its a lot. It's just making me feel sorry for myself and making me feel angry. My therapist said that I have a right to feel sorry for myself and that I'm incredibly resilient. I wish I believed that. I just feel angry. I'm scared she doesn't know what she's doing. One of my traumas is my mom trying to kill herself. I think it was like 4 times. I asked my sister today how many times and she got mad at me and hung up. My family has just blocked those years out. That's just 4-10. I have way more coming up. It just seems so unfair.


Our food stamps got messed up and had to go down there today about that. The light in my kitchen is out again. My son won't quit bothering me. I'm just stressed, anxious, feeling sorry for myself, angry, tired.


Life just sucks for me right now.