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Lemoncake · Jul 31, 2019, 05:20 AM

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Originally Posted by SheHulk07

Today was by far the hardest day since leaving the hospital. Went to go get 2 cakes for my kids' birthdays, but only found 1 to match a theme my son picked out. I basically had an anxiety attack trying to figure out how to do the cake to match the theme I bought supplies for. H kept suggesting a unicorn cake which we did last year and it got messed up twice, so I told him I didn't want to do that again plus it didn't match the theme. I got so upset I left the store, got in the car, H said something and I said screw this, I'm done. Got out of the car, grabbed my purse and told him I'd see him later. I was going to go back in the store and try to figure out the cake without the stress of everyone around, but H got out of the car as well and started walking away as well. I ended up getting back in the car and driving off, leaving him in the parking lot until I cooled down, came back to the store to order the cakes and then he got back in the car while I was in the store.
I feel stupid and totally off the walls for reacting that way over a cake situation. I feel like I'm losing my mind these past few days. It's been such a struggle.

Possible trigger:

I told T that the SI thoughts have been very strong the past few days. He knows of thoughts on Sunday I had when I talked to him. I didn't tell him about the thoughts I had last night, just that I hope I can make it through tonight without being safe. He said I could call him, but I always worry it'll be do late. He said the insurance care coordinator called him today and left a message asking how he thought I seemed after being discharged and if I've been having SI thoughts. He said he was going to return her call, but didn't say exactly what he's going to tell her. He asked if I had an opinion on what to tell her and I just told him that he can share what I said about the SI.

I'm not sure what all a care coordinator can or will do, so I don't have much of an opinion of what he should or shouldn't share.

I can understand the expectations but even though it might not fit with the theme, a child would be happy with a any cake. for my last birthday my sister got plain cupcakes and just used gel icing. it really doesn't matter- you're doing the best that you can, that's all that does.