I hear you, @starryprince! It's REALLY hard! Please NEVER give up Hope. Can you find another job while you're doing the current one? Surely there must be something a little bit less stressful for you. I also understand you having doubts about your career choice. It's PERFECTLY NORMAL! However it's important to decide what you want to do with your Life. Do you have some ideas in mind already? I hope you won't take this as an offense but perhaps it would be a good idea for you to see a therapist. There's no shame in that as even therapists have to see other therapists. That's just a suggestion though! You decide. Either way, I hope you'll at least be able to find a less stressful job soon. It is hard to start up but once you do it it gets easier. I'd say keep working and doing what you can, try to look for something else if you can and perhaps think about what you REALLY want from your Life, perhaps with the help of an experienced therapist. Feel free to PM me ANYTIME! I'll be happy to help you! I'm sure PLENTY of others will help youout as well! Please keep positng and keep us updated if you want! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING!