After a series of several "good" weeks I can feel myself sliding down again. I know what's coming and I can't stop it. I see the rock bottom quickly approaching and there's no way to stop.
It's like I'm sliding down a slide. I see what's at the bottom. I know I'm going to crash into it, but I can't do anything about it. Jump off the slide? That will only hasten the inevitable. Try to grab on the sides and slow yourself down. If I slow down that just prolongs everything. It doesn't stop anything. I have been down thus slide so many times before. I hate it. "If you really hate it then you would do something about it."
That may be true. I have tried and nothing works. I'm just doomed to repeat this endless cycle.