It's hard to get dressed. It's hard to bathe. I bathe about every three days and it's so hard to pull myself out of the bathtub. I'm too tired to take a shower. I'm not interested in college, in fact, it's a large stressor but I have to do it or I can't have a baby with my husband. I can't grocery shop by myself. I don't do chores around the house. Dishes pile up. I say spiteful things to my husband. We get into arguments. We barely do anything together because I don't feel like doing anything. I'm thirty pounds overweight and have no motivation to exercise. I want to just die, but I'm not going to kill myself. And at the same time I'm terrified of death and of having bad health. I feel like I am sinking under too fast for me to do anything about it.