Yes, I can DEFINITELY relate, @Peonie30! I've never been a particularly strong person so I'm not actually yearning for the Past... But I DO want to prove to myself that I can make it through even though that's not the case! So yes, I totally get you. I think it's important to recognize what we CAN and CAN'T do and acknowledge that just because we're struggling it doesn't make us weaker... In many ways, it makes us stronger! That's how I see it anyway. I hope it helps you to see that you're not alone here. Keep posting here if it helps! [emoji813] [emoji813] Feel free to PM me anytime if you need advice and support. I am sure plenty of others will also gladly, kindly, wisely and wonderfully help you as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Peonie30, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking!