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Originally Posted by De Luca
I actually woke up this morning in a decent mood...until my kids started screaming. I have 2 and a half year old twins their screaming triggers my PTSD really badly. It could ruin my entire day instantly. It's bad enough to be a parent who is bipolar but with PTSD added, I sometimes think that maybe I went down the wrong path in life. I love my kids but i have to wear headphones on my ears or at the ready around my neck almost all day. My wife doesn't get my reaction either and why I get so upset amd angry when they scream, it'w causing issues in our marriage to be honest.
I guess I just have to survive a couple more years until they stop this high, shrill screaming.
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Oh how I can relate! Loud noises set me off, too. It can take hours to recover and much longer if it repeats. In general, people do not understand.
My pdoc helped me with an example to share with people: Tell them how abused animals (often Greyhounds from race tracks) have to have quiet environments and are very startled if there is unexpected and/or loud noises introduced into their environments. For some reason, people tend to understand what animals might go through. This approach may or may not help?
If someone slams a door, slams anything, I am toast for hours.
Additionally, some days, any noise is overwhelming and also sets me off.
It must be very difficult to live with the noise.
I think it would be very important to help your wife to understand. Otherwise, your "avoidance" might well be misunderstood and may cause some resentment within your relationship.
It can be so very challenging to live with the many effects of PTSD. I am sorry you must deal with these effects. I hope you can find a way to cope and a way to educate your wife in a way that helps her to truly understand.
My best to you ~