The only way to acquire skills is to be around a steady steam of learning coping skills and knowing how to actually use them when you need them, that’s hard. But do able. I have a huge tool box but my last Florida trip? Good grief I struggled to actually use them effectively. I was rather upset with myself. I have a bunch of coping skills it's using them that's my issue.

As for your feeling someone else needs it more ?? No just no.. you deserve help just like anyone else. I think you need to change your thought process on that, reframe it. Think of if you needed a surgery for a health problem and of course other people need it too. You both deserve its just the same. Mental health services are no different. I'm trying really hard to view it that way but I have a problem viewing my issues to a sprained toe vs needing to amputate a toe. Most agree it's just a sprain but that's because there's no x-rays available and I walk on it seemingly fine. Everyone here knows I probably need pins but convincing the dr is difficult. Even in crisis I either don't see it or am to afraid to speak up.

I'll go outside and look up vitamins.

Maybe if your running out of things to say in T , just tell her you don’t know what else to say and ask her to start a discussion. I'll try this this week.