I have fragmentation too. I like this word because it suggests the "looseness" of my personality parts. Not that i'm "promiscuous"! Not that "looseness" as in "a loose woman"!!! But the idea that my parts do not co-operate as well as a healthy person's. I don't have a strong "executive personality." It's not quite dissociative identity disorder (DID) but it is shading in that direction.

It's not healthy because my "parts" are sometimes working at cross-purposes: the one who wants to be active and the one who wants to be sedentary; the one who wants to be an activist and the one who wants to be peaceful; the one who wants to be gregarious and the one who wants privacy; the one who wants sex and the one who wants celibacy; the one who wants to indulge and the one who wants moderation; the one who wants to be wild wild wild and the one who wants to be a couch potato; the one who wants to edit for an hour and the one who wants to scribble and move on.

I made a joke about it with my Facebook friends when i changed my avatar frequently and one person asked, "Who are you again?"! I say i am not "gender-fluid" but i AM "identity-fluid." Sometimes i feel strong and mighty. Other times i feel weak and vulnerable. At the moment i feel just pleasantly like i'm ten years old or so. Secure and curious about the world and open.

I also have the thing with passing fancies, or fascination with hobbies. The poet's call it having a "magpie mind." A magpie is a type of bird that gets fascinated with a shiny thing for a while then abruptly loses interest and moves on to the next shiny thing. In the past my main hobby was competitive Scrabble and i memorized thousands of obscure words in bit-size lists and had a great time -- they were organized in "stems" and were like mathematical songs to me.

I was fascinated with making public transit free in September and now am barely comfortable being a public transit user, much less activist. I also get fascinated with re-arranging my furniture here in my small living room and am delighted with myself but later see that it's not ergonomic and put everything back in the original spots. I also got fascinated with this song of Mormon oratory and scribbled the lyrics all over my kitchen cabinets in marker. I don't mind tho -- it's an uplifting song and the few plumbers who have seen it think it's cool. I scribbled lines of philosophy from the movie "Natural Born Killers" all over my bathroom walls in marker when i was fascinated with that movie.

I don't mind living this way. In fact, i think it's cool -- except for the acute fear or anxiety or frustration or rage episodes -- those i detest, of course. But i think the passing fancies are great and make me an interesting screwball type of person, a lovable bumble and we're good people!

Be well my friend!