I'm all sorts of moods, spamming the couch tonight. I've been thinking a lot tonight about what my T said today about bringing things into the room to talk about, to feel them in there. I want to tell him the 100% truth about how I've been feeling lately and what I've been doing SH wise. I know he can't truly help me unless I tell him everything. But I'm so scared that he'll say I'm too risky and stop working with me or send me to the hospital and stop working with me. Like I'm too much of a liability. This is really bringing up a lot of feelings and I can't stop crying tonight about it. I don't even know how I'd begin to tell him without just bawling, even though he assured me it's okay to just cry.