Oh . . . I didn't know this kind of OCD existed. I probably have it. I always thought I had OCD tendencies and germ/poop phobia without it being clinincal because I don't do the rituals, but I might disinfect something that got soiled by a pet and then go back and disinfect it a couple more times because I'm anxious I didn't get it clean enough.

I do have a problem ruminating and I didn't know that was OCD. Worrying does something's give me an upset stomach so that I lose my appetite. And right now I'm really depressed because the house is really dirty and I can't clean it as fast as soemone else gets it dirty.

The thing about not having a girlfriend is hard because worrying about it makes it harder to get and keep a girlfriend. It's nothing to be ashamed of. It's better to be alone than with the wrong person, so Inhope you find someone suitable eventually and try not to rush into anything. People who have relationships just for the sake of having it, often end up very unhappy or exploited. I hope you find the right person soon.