Christina


I'll be OK by myself tomorrow, I think. Luckily, I see my therapist every Tuesday, so that wait won't be long. As for my psychiatrist, that appointment isn't for a little over 2 weeks. I'll see how things go. Very often, my mood is worse during the work week (with hubby at work) than on the weekends. If it becomes concerning, I will call pdoc before my next appointment. He knew I was a bit depressed the last time, but I was also very agitated and irritable. I think he assumed mixed features, which was likely right. The questions always are: Lower the Seroquel XR (to elevate mood a bit) or increase it (to lessen agitation and maybe increase mood)?


My nightmares have been the last few days. Prior to that, they were a while ago. I hope tonight is a good sleep.


I have not seen my dad since Christmas day. I attempted to call him about four days ago and he brushed me off telling me he couldn't hear me, and goodbye. Truth is likely that he didn't want to talk at the time. He is more eager to talk to cronies and strangers than his own immediate family. When I've visited him, he barely pays attention to me. That's not uncommon for him. He's always been a self-absorbed type of person who gives little. Maybe some money, but nothing more significant. I told my psychiatrist that I love my dad, but don't like him much. That's where guilt comes in, but I can't change a 78 year old man. My siblings feel the exact same way as me. Our mother was very different than our father.


Relationships require reciprocity. I have that with my husband.