So here I am again with another update even though it appears some of you are obviously on her side. So who cares why HR did what they did, or said what they said, what does that have to do with anything? The simple fact is HR is trying to help us both and trying make peace at work, period. As for me assasinating her character, not at all, just using observation. Now that I'm done saying my peace on that, let me tell what I do believe is the root issue.

So after 3 1/2 months of no contact, up until just this last week she would avoid me like the plague. Just 2 days ago I was outside smoking with a couple of other friends, both women, when from around the corner comes the woman I speak of. She doesn't leave, she stands about 10-15 feet away and stays till she's done. No we didn't speak, but she didn't leave either. But here's what I believe is really happening. Putting all the things together that I've heard about her, which I really don't care as they all happened before I met her; and also reading online about these things, I have come to the conclusion that somewhere inside her she does have good feelings for me, but doesn't see a good outcome in end, so she has basically shunned me. I'm okay if that's the reason as at least I know she doesn't hate me. I did as HR (here we go again) just to ask if I should try to apologize to her as it seems like everytime I turn around lately I'm passing in the hallway, or on the stairway and that hasn't been happening for a while now. Anyways, HR said no I would just leave it alone for awhile, which I'll do, but then it seems the last conversation with HR was like a month ago. If you could see her actions when she walks by, you would most likely see the same thing I do, there have been a few times I've seen her with a slight smile come over her, even though she is always walking with her head down and just looking sad. About 2 weeks ago I was walking accross the parking lot and noticed her outside smoking again and staring ahole right through me, as soon as she realized that I saw her looking, she looked away, which I found sorta odd. I did have one woman at work who knows her pretty well who stated she knows her quite well and knows something is wrong, but hasn't really been able to talk for a while as it's been very busy lately. BTW, we both work at a ski resort so this time of year is busy enough that time passes. The bottom line here, as stated in the past she has trust issues, whether they are self induced, or otherwise matters not, but they do exist. Not only that I really firmly believe that she doesn't think anyone can love her just because she is her, and I do. I just have gotten to the place where I just need to let time work it's magic, and if it doesn't come, it doesn't I'll have to live with it, but I do believe she has those feelings for me as well (hard to explain), so we'll just see. All I can do now is pray for God to do the right thing, and pray that no harm comes to her because I will say this, I will do my best to protect her if I EVER saw harm in her way. I would do anything within my power to protect her from harm, and for the record I worry like crazy when I see it snowing out and she has to drive in it. But that's what caring does for people. And also for the record, I am ready (finally) to move on but make no mistake, no woman will ever have a place in my heart like this one did/does and I'll have to find someone who can live with that, if I don't, I don't.