Thank you for your reply and kind words. I'm stuck in the middle of a mindset of 'moving on' and 'having hope' and that is what kills me. I just don't understand, because I think about her everyday. I feel we deserve a second chance - and I know I hurt her, but the rest of our relationship is so beautiful. I guess there is nothing I can do to influence anything here, other than myself, but I miss her...and I don't want her to be surrounded by negativity related to me. Maybe I'm impatient, something I have to work on, I just miss her so much...and I can't even tell her.