Hey, PC Forums. It's been a minute.

I'm honestly just looking for solace. I know life is crazy with the coronavirus, US politics are absolutely bonkers, and it feels like the weight of the world is being felt by everyone right now.

I'm also dealing with a recent move across several states, saying goodbye yet again to a wonderful group of friends. I'm in a new job which I absolutely love, but of course, I'm still adjusting to a new schedule and a new city. To top it all off, my car was totaled not even after a year of having it. I'm incredibly grateful that I'm even alive (a few more feet and I would have been dead), nobody was hurt, and my insurance was super helpful.

But I've been dealing with all of that, a near-death experience, and a sudden lack of confidence in my abilities (I'm normally such a cautious driver and this totally caught me off guard) all on my own.

I was in a "rut" for so long where I had no motivation or even a desire to be happy. I was finally getting out of there when the accident happened last weekend.... I don't think I'm falling back into the rut, but it does feel like my ambitions and my mental health have been shattered.

I've had the virtual support of my friends via text and phone calls, but I don't have a literal shoulder to lean on here.

It's been so hard. And to give myself credit, I've been handling this a lot better than I thought I would. I don't feel depressed right now, but this whole week my appetite's been lower, and I absolutely can't focus at work. It feels like I don't deserve to feel happy. I can feel "fine" watching comedies on Netflix, but truly enjoying things I love like cooking, listening to music, or even chatting with friends doesn't "feel right" anymore. I don't know what to do.

I feel like I've been life's punching bag for a while, and I'm really looking forward to a break. Good things are on the horizon, but I just needed to vent my feelings because it's too much to deal with on my own.

Hope everyone else is doing all right. Peace & Love....