@Crook32 I'm sorry you're still struggling, but keep in mind that this WILL eventually pass. Do you need to be back in the hospital? I know it's not an ideal time to go, but if you need it, you need it. Don't hesitate if you're feeling unsafe. Can you call your T and/or pdoc and explain your struggles to her? Be honest, try not to minimize (or catastrophize), see if you can get more frequent appointments, and follow her advice. I really hope this ends quickly for you, you really don't deserve this.