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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
Beyond the medications you mentioned have you ever been prescribed something specifically for anxiety? Even a benzo? There are also non-benzo meds like vistaril.
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No. I've never been properly diagnosed with anything and when the doctor gave me celexa and busaprone.
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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
A 27 and 20 year old is not a child. How long had you been without a job and not paying before your current job?
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Trust me, we're both children. Up until last year my mom still cleaned my brother's room, because he refuses to and she didn't want the house condemned. But after she found about 3 lbs of maggots, she quit doing it for him. I'm glad to say I have a little more maturity than that, I can clean after myself, but I still rely on a parent to survive.
This is my first job since I was 22. I worked at a factory for 4 weeks. It's hard to hold a 'real' job when I can't even get out of bed some days.
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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
What do you mean by this? Are you saying this happens at work? What is the context?
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I work at a virtual call center. On Day 2, some lady called in and just went on a rant about how AARP is in the democrats pocket and screaming at me when I tried to explain I don't work at AARP, it's just a phone number to get free information about them. There's been a couple similar incidents, but that's the one that stands out the most.
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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
How long did you go without paying child support? Did you go back to court and tell them your income changed to get it reduced?
I can see how she might be upset if you had money for pot but not for child support.
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18-21 before I got arrested, and she's paid it from 21-27. They say unemployed, the minimum is 200/month. I'm barely making 200/month as it is, in fact this month I'm going to be short for sure... I'm sure as hell not going to go tell them I'm making money now so they can charge me MORE than the minimum. I'm struggling enough as it is.
Pot's about the only thing keeping me alive right now. She's not upset about paying the child support, I'M upset about her paying it... She just tries to encourage me to get a job because she knows I'm not going to be able to take care of myself when she's gone and she's absolutely right.
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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
But what about your child?
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My child lives in a different state. Both states are charging me child support for the same child (only way I figure up that's possible is if she's illegally getting welfare from both states). When I was in court for felony non-support, I asked them which state to pay, the prosecutor asked me which state is going to put me in prison... So now I pay Missouri, but I can never go to Kansas because I have an active warrant there for felony non-support.
I call Kansas, I explain to them I'm NOT paying both for the same child. They say they'll have to call Missouri Child support and get back to me... I get a call back after 2-3 days saying they've removed my child support because I've been paying Missouri. 1-2 months later I start getting child support bills from Kansas AGAIN!!
I've only seen my kid once.. What do you want me to say? She waited until she moved to Kansas to do a custody hearing so she knew I wouldn't be able to be there, and since I missed my own custody hearing, later when they took the baby away from her, they didn't even tell me. They put my own kid in a foster home for 3 months and I had to find out from a random person on the street asking if I knew Kelly lost our kid... Yeah, I'd like to be in my kid's life... But I think it might be too late for that. Pretty sure she doesn't even know I exist. And I can't afford the lawyer anyway, so what's the point in even thinking about it? It just makes me feel that much worse.
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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
How long have you been working now? Are you saying you are trying to get on disability but cant afford the medical care and mental health treatment that would make you eligible? What kind of diagnosis do you think you need?
How does your child play into all of this?
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I've been hired for 70 todays as of yesterday. I couldn't start work, would throw back a fatal error. Service desk escalated me to emailing a developer for the app, sometimes the dev would take 2 weeks to reply to a single email... Took 8 weeks to get it fixed. This was my first week working, and last night when it gave me an error trying to log in I just said **** it and didn't even call to tell them why I wasn't logged in for work...
I don't know.. I don't WANT to be on anything specific, I just want to feel better... If I NEED disability, sure... But I think if I could just get on some kinda meds to make me feel 'normal' I'd be able to handle a job better and not need it... But I really don't know... The only place within 40 miles wants me to go every week and with sliding scale pay it's 30 PER WEEK. $120/month... And if I can't pay, **** me. It's not one of the kinda places that care about patients... It's the kinda place where you pay up front or you leave.
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Originally Posted by BethRags
I'm sorry you're so depressed and anxious.
Please believe me: you need better psychiatric help than you're getting. The correct meds, for one thing.
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I'm aware... But all I can afford right now is cheap, ****** pot and no psychiatric help. That's why I'm posting here... What can I do? Is there a place that can diagnose me and prescribe me something to help without charging me 30+ dollars per week? I've got maybe 10-20 bucks left over PER MONTH after paying child support if I work every day... Considering some days I don't get out of bed at all, I doubt I'll manage to fully pay child support every month, let alone 120/month for help.
If ANY of that sounds rude to either of you, I'm not trying to be... I only just woke up so I'm not trying to be pissy, but I may have sounded like it.