Aaaand...today I’m fine. Energy, happiness, etc. I cleaned everything top to bottom. I tried to vacuum but I think it’s clogged so I have to wait for RS to get home. Ate waaaay too much today. Boredom. I was reading a book which I haven’t been able to do at all for weeks, and I was reading reddit.

I don’t like how quickly it switched though...doesn’t seem sustainable. Bc this happened last week as well. I started feeling ok Friday and by Saturday I was totally fine. So I am keeping my IOP appt tomorrow, but I am more confident that I can do evening IOP instead of php so I don’t have to miss work, even though work is tortuous. But that’s only because remote learning is so hard for the students and I don’t have the right books so I can’t help. I can help with 4th grade reading and that’s it. We have second, third, and fourth grade at different times.

I hope the depression is over thanks to lamictal but honestly I’m feeling a little TOO happy, if you know what I mean so I’m hoping the haldol will chill me out while the lamictal kicks depression’s ***.

I’m trying desperately not to go buy a pack of cigarettes because I KNOW I will just get addicted again. I already started vaping again but I’m pretty sure my state just banned even menthol flavor so I’m SOL on that one. I hate tobacco flavor. So I’m just going to have to quit nicotine. I’d rather do that than smoke.