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Originally Posted by Job 30 26
Works over. Pretty easy day, can't complain. I still haven't had any alcohol--stocking to lemon ice tea. I but a thing of cappuccino for the weekends for when i write. I'm going to maybe keep this going until the end of August because I've read that it takes 3 months to really bounce back. Then it will be just 2 beers a day, no more ever.
The mexican guy at work is really getting stressed out for some reason. He seems like all the responsibility is on his shoulders but there is no reason for him to feel that way. I feel bad for him, even though he makes more than me. This is really easy interior work, there just happens to be a lot of it.
Kinda looking forward to slow work over winter so I can read more books. I don't know guys. I really have nothing to say anymore because of the flat affect.
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You're doing awesome man! Reading, working, writing, cutting down on drinking.
I haven't had an alcohol since that glass of wine made me suicidal. I'm lowering the benzos and been tapering phenibut for like months.. But I won't quit.. Keep tapering. You decide when you've had enough.. But a drug does what it does... A beautiful magic of psychoactive molecules it is.. Just like life, each has it's good and bad, heaven and hell, angels and demons... You decide..
Fight the demons.. I'm fighting still.. Although satan lures me into hell. Sometimes I can't catch my breath and I'm slipping into the deep end. I feel the current within - I can't help but give in.. And you know where you're going.. The choices.
Don't lose control. I want to be FJ instead of FP most times.