True but with the medical stuff, my doctor is an hour and a half away and I just don’t wanna make that drive at all, whatsoever. I absolutely hate long drives. Plus cvs does ear cleaning but there’s only one cvs in this town and it doesn’t have a minute clinic. Ugh. Maybe I can go somewhere else in this town.

The depression, idk. Maybe I am depressed. It seems as if the depression (for no reason) is underlying and when I get even worse into depression, it’s for a reason. So double whammy against me. Double edged sword w/e.

Man, idk what’s wrong. Idk anymore. Between the severe psychotic episode I encountered a week or so ago and this depression, I really, really want to give up on my life goals. Like I haven’t really been inspired, or writing, or reading, or anything. I’m pushing myself to post on social media. That’s why I haven’t been doing anything, I’m so exhausted from my mental health and I feel like if I’m not being productive at this point, then what’s the point at all? I’ll just sit around and sleep or do whatever.