Last night I was working on custom map modding for a game. I can’t believe I did it. I mean I know why I can’t but I don’t too. I always seem to surprise myself with technology or anything really. That I’m able to do the stuff I do. I truly can NOT find or know anyone else besides my dad that seems to be a renaissance person or woman or jack of all trades. Maybe people online but not in person. I don’t quite understand why more people aren’t versed in multiple things. Not even a little bit.

When I found out fiancé had a gaming computer I thought he was really smart with that stuff. Turns out I am more than him.

Also, it seems as if I go through many days of depression and then maybe 2-3 days of hypo. All while hearing stuff daily whether depressed or not, or hypo or not. Also delusions. It never turns into mania tho. So maybe I am schizoaffective. Not that I ever doubted it!