I do the same thing Spazkatt - I get mad and upset, half the time I don't even know why and then I hurt people because of my own bad mood. If that makes you horrid, well then I am horrid too.

All my life I have felt that people leave, only to learn that I have pushed them away because I was so afraid they would leave anyway. Even though I know this now, it hasn't stopped me from pushing those closest to me, away from me.

Being alone is my greatest fear. I know just how you feel.

And you know what else? That infectious, bubbly and beautiful smile I see in your pics isn't horrid. It's precious.

Sending you a comforting hug