Hi y’all this us my first time on any peer support group site. It’s really early where I am and I can’t get back to sleep. I can get to sleep fine but staying asleep is hard once my mind spins up. Thought?
I’ve also been struggling with the fear of losing control and having another manic episode. Though I’m sure it wont look the same as it did before. I had two major episodes in three years when I was 30. I fought the diagnosis because I already knew a lot about it at the time. The second episode rife with religious delusions lead to me losing my religion. The first episode led to bankruptcy.
The stakes are higher now I'm married and we are fairly well set up. The thought of losing control to that extent again terrifies me. Can anyone relate?
Thanks