So sorry, whatever. Remind me of your exercise routine. My lifelong, horrendous depression has improve about 50 percent after increasing my aerobic exercise by about 100 percent or so. Brain derived neurotrophic factor is made and released by the liver in response to as little as 20 minutes of vigorous aerobics of any kind. BDNF stimulates catecholamines and glutamate and NMDA receptors. What could you maybe do? It is not a big time commitment for a huge return. You should probably consider this for the sake for the sake of your brain. My ex used to run with me and our baby. She made me, God bless her. Now, God helps me run and cycle. It is huge. Huge.