@whatever2013 and @BethRags, thanks for your concern. I am experiencing a major upswing. It's become quite apparent and I've consulted with my psychiatrist today. I have a med dose increase. I already took 100 mg extra Seroquel today (50 iR morning/50 XR afternoon) and my usual evening dose (650 mg), plus my other bipolar meds. I'll admit I still feel fairly revved up, so pdoc told me to take yet another 50 mg of the iR if I can't get to sleep. I'm about as up as I've been for a long time -- only worse about two and a half years ago in May 2018. I can NOT become so manic that I can't easily de-escalate. I've started to have "issues" with my mood. Hubby has started taking some things over that I had been doing. Even so, there is just so extremely much to do and so many stressful things. Of course I could go on and on, but I'll try to spare people. My therapist is little help, but my psychiatrist is a gem. I'll be in touch with him again soon, if needed, or next Wednesday when I have a scheduled appointment. He always responds quickly. He knows me like the back of his hand, which is good. I'll be so sad when I have to find someone new. It will be a great loss for me to have to move on from him, though he did say he would continue giving me video sessions even for a while after I move to CZ. So did my nephrologist. Those two guys are basically the kind of men (or people in general, since some women are similar) that are treasures in one's life. My greatest living treasures are my husband, psychiatrist, and my sister. I'll miss seeing my sister when I move. I have to coerce her to visit me in CZ. She retired early. I think she will want to visit CZ again (she went there for my wedding). Of course my mother was a great treasure, but we lost her about 15 years ago to cancer.

I apologize if anything I wrote today (or will write) seemed, I don't know, triggering/concerning/offensive or otherwise.

The handyman was supposed to come back today, but didn't. No show. So many places are late in getting us what we need. This kind of frustration is a major trigger for me. I like for things to go efficiently, quickly, and smoothly, but I realize they sometimes don't. The lack of control over a situation is rough for me. I have to resist the temptation to take on more and more, too. The less out of control, the more I freak out and escalate.