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I was raised in an environment where education and good paying white collar job are the most important things in life. Not just my father, but everyone in the town where I come from has this expectation of me of being professionally and academically successful. Although I managed to achieve the highest academic degree, I have failed miserably to translate this into a successful career or even a stable career for that matter. Instead now I am unemployed, with 3 years gap in my resume. As such, I feel I have failed, and I have withdrawn from people completely because of my low self-esteem. When I went home the last time, I didn't want to see people, because they kept asking what I am doing, and I felt so embarrassed and very little. I think all of this because of the expectations that set in advance for me. I think if there wasn't expectations from me, failing would have been normal.
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