i am so Sorry things are being so hard for You two, nak. my advice qould be to simply do what she suggested - Work on Yourself And try to improve Yourself. i'd suggest seeing a therapist to start out. That way You'd also show her that You're REALLY interested in changing And in making things Work out. To Be Honest i also don't find it fair of her to put You on "hold" like that. i feel like she also needs to Be Honest And tell You exactly what she plans on doing. Surely she doesn't Expect this situation to Last ForEever? i'd have an Honest talk with her about ALL of this. SEnding many Safe, Warm Hugs to BOTH You, @nak0604, Your Family, Your FriEnds, This Girl And ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting And keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!