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Originally Posted by divine1966
Your last post made me think you entered some questionable relationships because you didn’t want to be alone or were bored, not because they were so great. I remember sometimes dating because I was bored or didn’t want to be alone, not because I even wanted a relationship. I remember when I was very busy, I’d not consider dating because I didn’t have idle time. I know now people have too much idle time because many activities are suspended. I hope job prospects will resurface soon.
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Oh, that's exactly accurate about me - I have usually entered into a relationship because I have not had enough going on in my life and then I'm very lonely so a man has filled that void that I should be filling for myself!
So NOW, I wish to build or rebuild my life in a way that is far more fulfilling for me. I want to fill my life up with friends, with music events, physical activities and hobbies and interests.. of course, once covid passes and once life normalizes again.
For the first time perhaps ever I feel equipped to go solo and to build my life as I want it to be.
I don't know what brought me to this particular place mentally and perhaps it's after EIGHT abusive relationships!!! LOL.
And perhaps I'm a lot stronger now and can truly stand on my own two feet without a man being around. Perhaps it's age, wisdom, experience and maturity that has finally brought me to this place.
I think in the past I used to feel far more insecure if I did not have a partner. It's HARD going out alone by yourself into a crowd of people where SO many are coupled up. And that's what I used to do. But now? Eh. Who cares if I am alone!