I’m feeling really jittery today. It started yesterday toward the end of work. Today it’s been becoming steadily more apparent. It just took me 2.5 hours to write ten coordinate adjective sentences for minute to win it assignments. For middle schoolers, so not like super complicated sentences. I just can’t concentrate at all.

I feel like I’m struggling to keep my composure like I’m about to “pop off” in the words of my students. I got really ****ing pissed off at all my coworkers did talking about mental illness that they clearly know nothing about personally living it. What they know is from working with mentally ill children and sometimes adults, in the case of the few that have come over from working at the psych hospital. I couldn’t jump in without betraying myself.

I wanna like walk around the block a few times but I don’t know if I’ll have time after my eye appointment. But I can use packing as an outlet for my negative energy so at least there’s that. I managed to drive home like a normal person instead of an asshole so that’s good.

I think it’s just temporary, tends to happen when spring sets in and the sun comes back out. Didn’t happen last year because of the concurrent collapse of society as we know it. That plus the move, I’ve just got a lot of stress which tends to throw me off. I’m sure it’ll even out in a few days.