I don’t have a therapist. I’ve tried a few times but never felt comfortable with them.

@BethRags
Thank you for your concern. I’m still kicking around the idea of sending him an email. “Hi. I took a bunch of pills and alcohol last week. Hope you have a good day”. I joke because I’m uncomfortable.

This wasn’t the fist time and I hope it is the last. But sometimes when you get into that place. That out of control place, anything is possible.