I don’t think he will ever think you are a horrid human being. I think the good therapists know we are all human, and capable of every emotion there is, including rage and anger - they will have experienced it themselves.

I have had trouble expressing my anger in therapy because the building I’m in is shared, so I don’t want to disturb other people in the building with my outbursts. Sometimes I just feel like screaming. I always think of this thing I read, where we raise our voices because we feel so ‘far away’ from the other person, like in arguments and stuff. I don’t want to feel far away from him....although I have yelled and screamed and said horrible things to him on the phone before. He doesn’t hate me for it or see me as a horrible person.