I've skimmed through some of your thread @leomama I feel for you, it's hard to let go of someone you loved. I guess I'd saytry to forget both the ex fiance and definitely stop seeing and being in contact other than work with the current bf situation with his mother. Neither seem good for you. Hugs to you

I did say I was seeming desperate, but there's borderline there. He was always good with everything. But yeah, if I ever seem needy that's a complete turn off. I don't think I did much, except this last text. But I just thought I'd mention I was going around his way. I'm fine, sure if I don't see him again I'll miss him, but i know that day is coming and that's the reality with any kind of relationship, anything can happen. I could be in an accident tomorrow and die. I'd like to get as much fun out of life while I can. THanks for the way you come across eskielover, it isn't exactly nice and it sounds judgemental.