So Sorry for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! i can relate to the lack of motivation. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters that not taking your meds may be the cause. Please do contact your Pdoc/doctor as soon as possible. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Aviza, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!