Dear Old T.

I heard the hesitation in your voice when I asked you about seeing me if Current T (new Old T) couldn't come back to work. I heard it, but I dismissed it, because I couldn't go there. Like you, I had hoped I wouldn't need it.

But then I did, and then I hear you don't have the capacity. But. But. I am grateful for that, in a strange way. I am grateful that you aren't foolish. I am grateful that you see the depth of what I need. I am grateful that you aren't just going to randomly bit off more than you can chew, so thank you, for that at least.

And thank you for offering to help find someone to help me. I can't do that search again. It's too hard. I'm really not sure I would bother, personally. So I appreciate your asking me if you can help me. Even if it doesn't work out, like last time (what a disaster that was!) I know that you care. I do know that you care.