I think I have recovered physically as far as possible from having Steves middle son, wife and his youngest son here.

Steves youngest son Tyler was in the Army and him and the guys in the past 4 years would get together and go snow boarding, Hiking in Utah, NYC, cruises etc etc etc 3-4 trips a year. Well one of his friends age 29 in perfect health came down with Covid last Monday, felt horrible, running a high temp, the next day he went to the ER because he was having trouble breathing. He was on a ventilator 3 hours later and died the next morning.. he left behind a wife and 2 small kids..

Steve's middle son and his wife that were here along with Tyler last week have been hesitant to get the vaccine due to concerns about possible fertility/ birth defects issues as they are planning to start a family next year.. Well they are scheduled to get the vaccine tomorrow.

I see my T tomorrow ( Wednesday) and I really need it... We have always had a plan that if I got bad I would do X then Y then Z if need be. There needs to be changes due to my inability to be on Psych meds. Yes if things get worse then they are right now ( Bipolar wise ) I could take something very short short term. But nothing I can take more than a few weeks. So I need to get more hurdles in place to help me not do something awful.


Hugs to anyone in need