((Hugs)) Kit! You're such a great, kind person <3 You'll get through this.. You're handling it well. Looking forward to things is one of the biggest motivators for me (It increases dopamine o.-)

Anxiety meds make people less agitated, making them think more clearly and be less likely to act on impulse. Only you know your mind best - You have experience and seem to know what to do with good insight.

If things get overwhelming again, just keep talking with us. We're here for you ^-