
Mar 01, 2022, 06:54 PM
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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour
I've been so bored, lately, and have voiced that to Hubby, yet he's OK just idling about. He's mildly depressed, while I'm not. I'm more action oriented than him. I can try to put a fire under his butt but it doesn't often work. He's always so slow. Throughout our marriage I've often daydreamed of pulling him or carrying him in order to move faster. When I've tried to rush him he's protested.
Last night I didn't fall asleep until 3 am, waking up at 8 am. Hubby put on breakfast for a change. I definitely took my evening meds. I'm wondering if the season changes are a factor. There is already blooming forsythia here and snowdrops. This is not normal, but hey, nothing seems normal anymore.
My reduced pregabalin (Lyrica) has lowered my appetite, but my left foot pain has also returned to a degree. I guess the latter is the lesser evil. Really, it's no biggie.
I was thinking a lot about my old psychiatrist yesterday. It is/was a transference love case. I miss him more than I miss my own father. Sad but true. He and I have exchanged a few emails since I stopped "seeing him" last May (video sessions during covid). It's hard not to see them as sorts of love letters. It's my doing, as I initiate. I simply have to stop. I assume he likes them enough to not tell me to stop, or simply stop responding. In that sense, he's also quite to blame. Surely more so. It's been since before Christmas that we last wrote. There's never been proper closure in the relationship. I twice tried to say goodbye, but he refused it. Another abnormal thing. It prevents the grieving process from being adequately completed.
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I had a harder time getting over my transference T then I did getting over my dads death and that made me feel bad. I tried contacting her twice and both times she did not reply But she replied when my mom emaiIed her. I know what you mean about not having closure. I also had to move and say goodbye through telehealth. I seem to have now made peace with things and have accepted them but it was not easy. I only worked with her for less then 2 years. I can not imagine what it would be like for you with having worked with him for so long.
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