I'm in bed early tonight again. It's only 8:15 but it's getting dark. I was watching Monk but stopped it. I should go to sleep before I get hungry. (I never had a proper dinner- just a bunch of cheese.). I need to get my meds on Friday. I told Caleb that this visit is to be strictly platonic- he said "Yeah isn't it always?" Well no, no it isn't as last time he stayed over he woke me up by getting into bed with me with intentions. Also today on the phone, I also told him I don't want him to smoke on my balcony. I consider both of these setting boundaries. (I have a sneaking suspicion that I already posted about this... Darn my memory!)

I forget my night meds more than I should. And it's morning by the time I go to get my morning pills and see the unopened blister packs from the night before.

Oh and Mark was telling me that "We love each other". I said "And you're married" and he said "We love each other as friends.". Doesn't matter- he's never going to drive here for a visit. It's been over 5 years since I last saw him in person- probably more. The last time we were going to get together, he went to some customer's house and spent all afternoon there and used up all the time we had. He also wasn't communicating with me very well about why he hadn't arrived when he said he would.

And I had coffee with Peter this afternoon and he confessed to me that he had completely and totally fallen in love with me and didn't realize it until I ghosted him last year. Woah. But he says that's all in the past now and we are just good friends.

I'm just having trouble with all my guy friends lately.