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Exactly! The bottle of Gabapentin is large and tall. First thing in the morning I set it smack in the middle of my kitchen table. I walk past it countless times a day. But I just don't "see" it! The only other thing I can think of is to set the bottle somewhere that forces me to see it in order to function (right next to my keyboard, for example). If that doesn't work, well, I'll just go to the AM/PM dosing.
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![]() I had no idea there was a "real" name for dermatillomania. Again, thank you! Now I have a scientific name to tell my med provider. I've had the disorder since I was a young child. So, for about 55 years. But in all that time it has never been as bad as it's been since the horrible last session with that damned pdoc. It's embarrassing to admit, but I literally lie in bed tearing at my cuticles these past 2 weeks. I'll spend a good hour or more doing it. It is absolutely an anxiety thing. While I'm tearing my skin it feels like I'm doing something to help alleviate the bad feelings - but my fingers are so sore and scary-looking. I have pretty tattoos on some of my fingers and on my hands; the tattoos draw attention to my hands, thus, to the raw places on my fingers. Ugh. I'm grateful for your friendship, bizi ((((((HUG)))))) Now, please...it's been a long time since you've checked in. How are things going for you?
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[QUOTE=BethRags;7201865]
I had no idea there was a "real" name for dermatillomania. Again, thank you! Now I have a scientific name to tell my med provider. I've had the disorder since I was a young child. So, for about 55 years. But in all that time it has never been as bad as it's been since the horrible last session with that damned pdoc. It's embarrassing to admit, but I literally lie in bed tearing at my cuticles these past 2 weeks. I'll spend a good hour or more doing it. It is absolutely an anxiety thing. While I'm tearing my skin it feels like I'm doing something to help alleviate the bad feelings - but my fingers are so sore and scary-looking. I have pretty tattoos on some of my fingers and on my hands; the tattoos draw attention to my hands, thus, to the raw places on my fingers. Ugh. /QUOTE] I have a trick for this. It works for me anyway. I get those blister bandaids that are really thick rubbery stuff and put them on any finger that I have opened up or that is really sore. They stay in place long enough for the prior damage to heal and if I pick at them nothing happens because the bandaids are made to stick for a while. The last time I was IP I had them on 7 fingers at one point. But it really does help me and I pick a lot less than I used to. And yes, the flea meds are for my cat! ![]()
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Well I’m not having a good day. Slept terrible when the alarm went off I had just gotten to a deep sleep. Took me a few minutes to get moving and I signed on to sign up for aqua fitness next week, sigh, was late it was seven minutes after 7 and already I was on the wait list! You can sign up starting at 7! I just felt so sad and down that I canceled today aqua and went back to bed.
Was awake but dreaming. That happens when I don’t sleep enough but I dream. Then I got up for fitness class. Pushed myself to get there and almost left cause so down. The low pressure rainy day wasn’t helping. But I got though it by telling myself I can do anything for one hour,…45 minutes, 30 minutes then finally I could tell myself there was only ten more minutes. Tomorrow I have my fitness evaluation I hope I sleep tonight. Then it was time to go pick up the groceries. Mum said just as I left she wanted prunes. I told her I wasn’t going in the store just picking up the pre ordered groceries. But…. I did go in. Of course there was no close parking, but I told myself at least it’s only sprinkling now. Then when I drove up to the pick up area there was a bunch of cars parked there. And nobody around to bring the groceries. Then I had so much fun on the drive back. It’s pouring out again and traffic is heavy and a guy in a red pick up behind me on the entrance ramp pulls out in front of a semi passes me and the car in front of me then swerve s back into the right lane to exit and almost hits a car and the interstate is full of cars and semis! Sheeze I sure hope I can sleep tonight. I’m not that far down on my taper that it should be this bad. I’m thinking of adding the extra 20 of latuda he gave me.
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#930
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I had my phone appointment with my doctor and he prescribed the Wellbutrin. I talk to him again in two weeks. I just have to have it delivered tomorrow and start it on Friday and i should be on my way to feeling better.
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#931
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That is an excellent idea, Rainbow, and I will do it. The picking/tearing has gotten out of control this time. It's the worst when I'm lying in bed, unable to fall asleep. The bandaids would be excellent for that. I'm glad you don't have fleas! ![]()
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That sounds like a stressful day, for sure. I will never know what is in someone's head when they drive dangerously - and especially in the rain! I hope so much that you sleep more successfully tonight. If the Latuda will help you sleep, why not give it a try.
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I was so cold all night that I didn't sleep well. I had clothes on and thick socks, a fairly thick linen sheet, 2 blankets, and warm cats, but I could not stop feeling chilled. I've been battling a migraine for a couple of days...forgot that I have Imitrex, so I've been taking Advil, which is mildly helpful. A couple of shots of espresso would really help, but it was laundry or espresso and laundry won.
We're supposed to get "rain on and off" which means a little bit of rain here, a little bit of rain there. Oh, well. It's something, and it smells so nice. Oh, my gosh! Has anyone heard about the man in Kentucky who is suing his boss for giving the guy a birthday party? The man suffers from anxiety and has panic attacks, specifically asked his boss not to throw him a birthday party. The boss forgot and did the party. The man was traumatized by it and is now suing. I really feel for the poor man, but it seems like requesting a few days off or talking with his therapist, or maybe doing something with medication, would be more productive than an anxiety-producing lawsuit ![]()
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(((((((((( Jennifer ))))))))))) Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Nammu ! I’m sorry your day has been so awful
![]() Jennifer sending you mass hugs. Be kind to yourself !! Bizi , Thanks. MMJ isn’t legal here it’s really the Bible Belt! Maybe one day. How are you doing? Beth.. I go to type “ Beth” and it always Auto corrects to “ Beautiful “ so there ya go ![]() Wild.. I’m sorry your still struggling hard. Good for you journaling . I’m here if you need me.. Whatever ! I’m glad your starting on Wellbutrin. Here’s hoping it kicks in quick ![]() Moose.. yeah it’s a shame he’s a hard core smoker but some people just don’t even want to stop. Hugs to anyone I have missed. Well all 3 dogs got CBD oil and Gus did puke anyway ***sigh*** they were super chill tho lol So they got nails trimmed , ran by vets office for rabies shots and they just came out to the car to administer them ( thankful) My pain is still F’ing terrible I’m so over it! Hugs, love and cookies to everyone ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Definitely hypomanic today, out of nowhere. My IOP dr said take 100mg gabapentin and melatonin with my regular 8:30 meds and then take 50mg seroquel if I’m not asleep by 10pm. So I did that and slept great and wasn’t drowsy when I awoke. She also told me to stop the minipress regularly and only take it if I feel heightened, which I def do so I took it with my meds.
I was ok at IOP until the last group which pissed me off but not for a personal reason, not necessarily because of the topic but how the topic applied to me personally. I got so mad, I drove an extra ten miles down the highway and got off at a different exit so I could listen to my metal music loudly before getting into town. Then I wrote angrily in my journal. Then I sat in the sun in the backyard and grounded myself before picking up my son. We went to the diner for dinner and then on a nice walk through the park. I told my boys about the trail I had found through the woods there so we walked the short trail. They didn’t know it was there, I didn’t know until 2 summers ago when I was off for the summer and bored as hell. It’s very nice on a cooler day. When it’s hot it’s not so nice because it comes out to the unshaded pavement near the lake for a quarter mile before looping back into the woods, but today it was only 60 degrees out so it was a good day. It got some of my angry energy out. I have a feeling I’m not going to sleep. If the recommended combo doesn’t work I’ll take the seroquel earlier. When I stay up I get hungry and binge :-/
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I'm in bed early tonight again. It's only 8:15 but it's getting dark. I was watching Monk but stopped it. I should go to sleep before I get hungry. (I never had a proper dinner- just a bunch of cheese.). I need to get my meds on Friday. I told Caleb that this visit is to be strictly platonic- he said "Yeah isn't it always?" Well no, no it isn't as last time he stayed over he woke me up by getting into bed with me with intentions. Also today on the phone, I also told him I don't want him to smoke on my balcony. I consider both of these setting boundaries. (I have a sneaking suspicion that I already posted about this... Darn my memory!)
I forget my night meds more than I should. And it's morning by the time I go to get my morning pills and see the unopened blister packs from the night before. Oh and Mark was telling me that "We love each other". I said "And you're married" and he said "We love each other as friends.". Doesn't matter- he's never going to drive here for a visit. It's been over 5 years since I last saw him in person- probably more. The last time we were going to get together, he went to some customer's house and spent all afternoon there and used up all the time we had. He also wasn't communicating with me very well about why he hadn't arrived when he said he would. And I had coffee with Peter this afternoon and he confessed to me that he had completely and totally fallen in love with me and didn't realize it until I ghosted him last year. Woah. But he says that's all in the past now and we are just good friends. I'm just having trouble with all my guy friends lately.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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I decided not to wait for delivery of the Wellbutrin and went and got it myself. So now it's snug in my pill box all ready for the first dose tomorrow morning. I got relief almost instantly in 2018 so hopefully it'll be the same thing this time.
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I'm sort of wishing we could return to Europe after this Friday. I do want to see my poor brother at least once home from the hospital, and celebrate Dad's big birthday tomorrow, but I could skip the NYC portion (week) of the trip. Hubby would never agree, though, plus we bought expensive tickets to a ballet and also a piano concert.
It proves that right now the US is not "home" anymore. Nowhere quite qualifies, but I do wish to start searching for home.
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Holy moldy Burning man is $575 and that doesn’t include the car fee $140 I always wanted to go to the burning man.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I had a really good day, I got a very nice surprise, I won the coloring contest my building had and got a visa gift card as my prize
![]() Today I helped decorate the eggs that were used for the Easter egg hunt they did for the kids in the building, and we had an Easter potluck (I know Easter was Sunday, they were supposed to do it last week but it ended up having to be rescheduled to today) I bought 2 new videogames with my gift card (I’m really into gaming) I talked to my sister about Maybelle (her 13 year old cat she’s giving to me) she said she’d get her here before the end of the month so I’ll have her very soon! I’m excited 😃 Here’s a picture of Miss Mustachio just to show you how big she’s getting
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Wow miss M is looking more like a cat, a Devine one, and less like a kitten. Your coloring is beautiful.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I am worried about you. Please keep posting. (((((HUG)))))
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Miss M is getting so big. Has she hit the rotten ornery phase yet? I remember when my 2 were about that size they started doing things like hanging on my backpack which was hanging on a door while the door swung back and forth; climbing into every crevice or hole they could squeeze into; hiding from me, etc. Your coloring is lovely. That takes so much patience to have it turn out so beautiful.
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That was a rotten thing for RS to say. Under no circumstances should anyone ever threaten to abandon you. Or disrespect you like that. Stomp him. (((((HUG)))))
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I'm sorry, Moose. You deserve better. (((((HUG)))))
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You may be a Fuzzybear, but you're also an angel ((((((HUGS)))))) Yes, my T has been suggesting DBT a little bit. Ah-ha! I looked up "trifle" - absolutely lovely! I sometimes eat a strawberry trifle, but it has no such nice name here. ![]()
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Where is Sapien?
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